The more I learn, the less I understand

Well, so I did it. I am starting a blog. I am inching closer and closer to the 21st century. Or something like that. I don't know what it will be about. Mostly a biglonghugeramble on something or other. There are a few subjects I would like to write about. NDEs. Fresh steps. And since it is the beginning of a new year - new starts. Not that nasty word, "RESOLUTIONS", but real changes I want to see in my own self, my life, and in my own behavior. You fight it, excuse it, rationalize it, but eventually you have to face the music if you want to move forward. I am ready to move forward. I've lived so many years trying to manipulate the obvious, and now it's time to actually fix it so the rest of my life will be more enriched and meaningful.

I mentioned NDEs. That was the reason I  looked into starting a blog. I've read what's out there. But I want to work it out as sanely as I can. Anyone who's experienced it, knows, trying to come to grips with it, is hugely important to understand. But with it being so 'subjective' it is hard. My thoughts normally far out races my attention. (Sure, make sense out of that!) By writing I am forced to slow down and follow them through. Hopefully this will help.

Hopefully I will find the time to do it regularly. I used to be under the assumption that the older you get, the more peace, quiet and time you would have. Wrong. The older I get, the more hectic it's become. Kids grow up and move out, but then you still have their lives to share. Except, now it's not under the same roof, you actually have to meet places. No more talking over the dishes or laundry, you have to travel to do it. And then you have Grandkids to adore and spoil, and you become the fall back guy if an extra set of hands or a warm body is needed. So much for the golden years. I am not complaining, I love every minute of it. It's just stressful trying to juggle.

I also work full time. Sometimes I think about quitting so I can live full time. Nice thought eh'?

Well, that's all for now. I hope you'all are as impressed as I am. I can just imagine the glazed over eyes if you even got this far. I know this is supposed to be for me. But I know it will be read by strangers too, although there aren't many people out there stranger than myself, so I've been told. Weirder, MUCH weirder, but not many who are stranger.